The
Joy of a Mitzvah
By Yossy Gordon
The two brothers, the famed Rabbi Elimelech of Lizensk
and Rabbi Zushe of Anipoli, often wandered about together
posing as simple beggars. They would mingle with the
masses; listening, teaching, speaking, helping and guiding
whomever and whenever they could.
Once while traveling with a group of vagabonds, members
of the group were accused of being thieves, resulting
in the entire bunch being thrown into jail. Confident
of their innocence and eventual release, the two brothers
sat quietly. As the afternoon progressed, Rabbi Elimelech
stood up to prepare himself to pray the afternoon service.
"What are you doing?" his brother asked
"I'm getting ready for minchah," replied Rabbi
Elimelech.
""Dear brother," advised Reb Zushe, "it
is forbidden to pray in this cell because there is a
pail that serves as a toilet nearby, making the room
unfit for prayer."
Dejected, the holy Rabbi Elimelech sat down.
Soon after, Rabbi Elimelech began to cry. "Why
are you crying?" said Rabbi Zushe. "Is it
be because you are unable to pray?" Reb Elimelech
answered affirmatively.
"But why weep?" continued Rabbi Zushe. "Don't
you know that the same G d who commanded you to pray,
also commanded you not to pray when the room is unfit
for prayer? By not praying in this room, you have achieved
a connection with G d. True, it is not the connection
that you had sought. Yet, if you truly want the Divine
connection, you would be happy that G d has afforded
you the opportunity to obey His law at this time, no
matter what it is."
"You are right, my brother!" exclaimed Rabbi
Elimelech, suddenly smiling. The feelings of dejection
banished from his heart and mind, Rabbi Elimelech took
his brother's arm and began to dance from joy as a result
of performing the mitzvah of not praying in an inappropriate
place.
The guards heard the commotion and came running. Witnessing
the two brothers dancing—with their long beards
and flowing tzitzit—the guards asked the other
prisoners what had happened. "We have no idea!"
they answered mystified. "Those two Jews were discussing
the pail in the corner when all of a sudden they came
to some happy conclusion and began to dance."
"Is that right?" sneered the guards. "They're
happy because of the pail, are they? We'll show them!"
They promptly removed the pail from the cell.
The holy brothers then prayed minchah undisturbed...
The visitor from Hungary stopped a passerby on a street
in the town of Lisensk with the query: "Can you
please direct me to the home of the great Rabbi Elimelech?"
The man raised his eyeslids in astonishment: "You
mean to tell me that you journeyed all the way from
Hungary to see this 'Rebbe of Lisensk'?! Have the exaggerations
and embellishments about this man traveled that far
already? I know this Rabbi Elimelech personally, and
the man is an absolute zero. I'm afraid that you've
wasted your time and money on these silly rumors."
The visitor was outraged. "You lowly, despicable
man!" he thundered. "What do you know! You
obviously have no understanding of anything holy and
spiritual!" Still fuming, the visitor stormed off.
Later that day, when he entered Rabbi Elimelech's study
for his appointed audience, he nearly fainted in shame
and remorse. The man he had derided earlier on the street
was none other than Rabbi Elimelech himself! With tears
in his eyes, he begged the Rebbe's forgiveness.
"Why are you so upset?" asked Rabbi Elimelech.
"There's no need to apologize. I told you the simple
truth, and everything you said was also true..."
A Rich Man's Hospitality
As told by Yanki Tauber
For many years the two saintly brothers, RabbiElimelech
of Lizensk and Rabbi Zusha of Anipoli, wandered the
back roads of Galicia. Disguised as simple beggars,
they journeyed from town to town and from village to
village, refining their souls with the travails of exile
and inspiring their brethren with words of wisdom and
encouragement.
Late one evening, the brothers arrived in the town of
Lodmir. Seeing a lighted window in a large, well-appointed
home, they knocked on the door and asked for a place
to stay the night. "I don't run a hotel,"
was the irate response of its large, well-appointed
resident. "There's a poorhouse near the synagogue
for wandering beggars. I'm sure you'll have no trouble
finding accommodations there."
The heavy door all but slammed in their faces, and Rabbi
Elimelech and Rabbi Zusha walked on. Soon they came
upon another lighted home, whose resident, the town
scribe, welcomed them in and put his humble hut and
resources at their disposal.
Several years later, the two brothers again visited
Lodmir. This time, they were official guests of the
community, which had requested that the now-famous rabbis
come for a Shabbat to grace the town with their presence
and teachings. At the welcoming reception held in their
honor and attended by the entire town, a wealthy gentleman
approached them. "Rabbis!" he announced, "the
town council has granted me the honor of hosting you
during your stay. G-d has been generous to me, and you'll
want for nothing in my home. I've already explained
to your coachman how to find my residence, though he's
sure not to miss it--everyone knows where 'RebFeivel'
lives..."
The gathering dispersed, and Rabbi Elimelech and Rabbi
Zusha went to pay their respects to the town rabbi and
meet with the scholars in the local study hall. The
rich man went home to supervise the final arrangements
for the rabbis' stay. Soon the coachman arrived with
the brothers' coach and luggage. The horses were placed
in the stables, the luggage in the rabbis' rooms, and
the coachman settled in the servants' quarters.
Hours passed, but still no sign of the two visitors.
Growing anxious, the host sought out their coachman.
"What happened?" he asked. "When are
they going to come here?"
"They're not coming," said the coachman. "Rabbi
Elimelech and Rabbi Zusha are staying at the scribe's
home."
"At the scribe's?! What are you talking about?!
You're here, aren't you?"
"Those were the rabbis' instructions. 'Take the
horses and our luggage to Reb Feivel's,' they said to
me. 'We'll be staying with the scribe.' "
Reb Feivel rushed to the scribe's hut and fairly knocked
down the door. "Honored Rabbis," he cried,
finding Rabbi Elimelech and Rabbi Zusha before the fire,
having a cup of tea with their host. "Why have
you done this to me? It was agreed that I would host
you. You must tell me what I have done to deserve such
humiliation!"
"But you are hosting us," said Rabbi Elimelech,
"at least, that part of us that you desire to host.
Last time we were here, but without a coach, horses,
coachman and bundles of pressed clothes, you turned
us away from your door. So it is not us you want in
your home, but our coachman, horses and luggage--which
are currently enjoying your hospitality..."
A Bundle of Greens
By Yerachmiel Tilles
Reb Eliezer Lippa was a simple but devout Jew who lived
in the town of Taranow in Galicia. He was not well versed
in Torah and didn't know the meaning of most of his
daily prayers, but he always prayed with the minyan(prayer
quorum) and he was scrupulous to say all the proper
responses to the prayer leader. He never conversed about
worldly matters in the Shul and he accorded the Torah
scholars and Rabbi their due honor.
Reb Eliezer Lippa was a laborer who knew many trades,
but he was most well known as a water carrier. He worked
hard, and managed to make a decent living, as he had
four steady customers who were well-to-do merchants
and paid him above the average rate for his services.
One day, Rabbi Israel Baal Shem Tov arrived in Taranow.
This was before the Chassidic master had revealed himself
to the world, and he appeared as a simple itinerant,
but with a gift for telling stories. He used to congregate
with the other laborers and tell them stories from the
Talmud. He would also speak to them about how much G-d
was pleased with the sincere prayers and straightforward
faith of ordinary Jews.
Reb Eliezer Lippa was guiding his wagon with its full
barrel of water through the center of town when he spotted
his friend and fellow water carrier Reb Zalman Dov along
with some other men, gathered around a simply dressed
itinerant and listening intently with heads inclined
to catch his every word.
His interest sparked, Reb Eliezer Lippa went over to
join the circle of listeners. The Baal Shem Tov was
telling the story related in the Talmud of a wealthy
man who lived in the days when the Holy Temple in Jerusalem
still stood.
"The wealthy man was taking a fattened ox to the
Temple for a sacrifice. It was a massive beast, and
when it decided, for reasons of its own, to stop still
in its tracks, nobody was able to convince it to walk
further towards their destination. No amount of pushing
and prodding could make that animal budge.
"A poor man who was on his way home was watching
the scene. In his hand was a bunch of freshly picked
greens. These he now held to the muzzle of the ox, and
when the animal began to nibble, he drew them away and
thereby led the animal to its destination at the Holy
Temple.
"That night the owner of the ox had a dream. In
his dream he heard a voice which called out, 'The sacrifice
of the poor man, who gave up the bundle of greens he
was bringing to his impoverished family, was a more
desirable sacrifice than your fattened ox.'
"The wealthy man brought a large fattened ox for
a burnt offering. He was so joyful at being able to
bring such an animal that he also brought a sheep for
a peace offering and made a huge feast for his family
and friends. He also distributed the proper gifts from
his sacrifices to the priests. His joy was so intense
that he held back nothing. The poor man, on the other
hand, had only a bunch of greens to bring home for his
family. What were his few stalks compared to the fattened
animal of the wealthy man?
"Nevertheless," concluded the Baal Shem Tov,
"G-d desires the heart. Any mitzvah a person may
do, whether great or small, simple or difficult, is
judged by how it is performed. A mitzvah done for G-d's
sake, with great joy and purity of heart, is very precious
to the Creator. G-d cries out to the angels, 'Look at
the mitzvah my son/daughter has done!' G-d, from his
place in the heavens saw that although the wealthy man
had offered much, the poor man had offered much more."
Reb Eliezer Lippa's mind knew no rest. How he longed
to be able to do a mitzvah like the poor man in the
story, with pure intention and a joyful overflowing
heart! The weeks passed and still Reb Eliezer Lippa
knew no peace as his heart ached with the desire to
be able to do such a mitzvah.
One day, as Reb Eliezer Lippa was delivering water to
one of his wealthy customers, he had an idea, an idea
so perfect that his whole being became flushed with
a great sense of pleasure and relief. Reb Eliezer Lippa's
four wealthy customers provided him with half of his
livelihood since they paid him far more than the going
rate for a barrel of water. On the other hand, his friend
Reb Zalman Dov supplied the town's four synagogues,
which paid him half price for their water. "I can
exchange four of my customers for four of his,"
thought Reb Eliezer Lippa. "Four wealthy homes
for four synagogues." He was anxious to serve G-d
by providing the water that the congregants would wash
their hands with. Certainly the mitzvah was of more
value than the profits he would give up.
He went home and told his wife about the story he heard
from the visiting storyteller, and how doing a mitzvah
with joy is like bringing a sacrifice in the Holy Temple
even though it no longer stands. His wife readily agreed
to the idea, as did Reb Zalman Dov who sorely needed
the extra income. The deal was struck and the exchange
of customers was made. No one but Reb Eliezer Lippa
and his wife knew what had happened and they were overjoyed
at the prospects for their new "business."
There were days when Reb Eliezer Lippa's wife went to
the river to participate in the mitzvah of drawing the
water for the synagogues. As they hauled the water,
they would concentrate on the mitzvah of preparing the
water for the congregants to wash their hands with before
prayers, and their joy was boundless. For they understood
that G-d desires the heart.
Amongst Chassidim there is a tradition that it was in
the merit of their mitzvah, Reb Eliezer Lippa and his
wife were blessed with children, for she had formerly
been barren. They gave birth to two sons, who grew to
be luminaries who lit up the Jewish world and inspired
tens of thousand to return to G-d and to serve Him with
joy: Rabbi Elimelech of Lizensk and Rabbi Zusha of Anipoli,
two of the most illustrious disciples of the Baal Shem
Tov's successor, Reb DovBer, the Maggid of Mezeritch.
Your Fellow's Place
Ethics 2:4
By Yanki Tauber
"Do not judge your fellow," the great sage
Hillel is quoted in the 2nd chapter of Ethics of the
Fathers, "until you have reached his place."
One thought that comes to mind when contemplating this
statement is that a person can never truly be in his
fellow's place. If that be the case, then what Hillel
is really saying is, "don't judge your fellow,
ever."
But there's also the story about the famous Chassidic
brothers, Rabbi Elimelech and Rabbi Zusha. The pair
would travel from town to town and from village to village
in a quest to bring the hearts of their fellow Jews
closer to their Father in Heaven. Dressed as ordinary
wayfarers or beggars, they would knock on the door of
a Jewish home and ask to be put up for the night. In
the middle of the night, their host would be wakened
by sounds of weeping coming from the brothers' room.
Putting an ear to the keyhole, he would overhear them
confessing the day's misdeeds and failings to each other:
a bit of dishonesty here, a word of malice there. "Oh,
dear brother 'Melech!" Reb Zusha would weep, "I
scarcely opened a Jewish book today... What is a Jew's
life without a word of Torah? A barren wasteland!"
"Oh Zusha!" the other brother would unburden
his heart. "Do you think I prayed today? I barely
mumbled the words! Is that how a Jew speaks to his dear
Father in Heaven...?" With a stab in his heart,
the eavesdropping host would recall his own petty dishonesties
and badmouthing, his own neglect of Torah and soulless
prayers, and resolve to be a better Jew tomorrow.
So perhaps this is what Hillel wants to tell us: You
can't judge your fellow, but you can judge the person
in whose place you are -- namely yourself. So if you
want to help your fellow improve himself, criticize
yourself in a way that gets him thinking, too.
Then there's the story told of Rabbi DovBer of Lubavitch.
Once, while receiving people in yechidut (private audience),
Rabbi DovBer suddenly stopped the yechidut, locked his
door, and refused to see anyone for many hours. Chassidim
outside his door heard their Rebbe weeping and praying.
Following this incident, the Rebbe was so weakened that
he was confined to his bed for several days. Later,
one of the elder Chassidim dared to ask the Rebbe what
had occurred. Rabbi DovBer explained: "When a person
seeks my assistance in curing his spiritual ills, I
must first find the same failing -- be it in the most
subtle of forms -- within my own self. For it is not
possible for me to help him unless I myself have already
experienced the same problem and undergone the same
process of self-refinement. On that day, someone came
to me with a problem. I was horrified to hear to what
depths he had fallen, G-d forbid. Try as I might, I
could not find within myself anything even remotely
resembling what he told me. But Divine Providence had
sent this man to me, so I knew that somewhere, somehow,
there was something in me that could relate to his situation.
The thought shook me to the very core of my soul and
moved me to repent and return to G-d from the depths
of my heart."
In other words, you can't judge yourself, either. If
you have a problem, then you're the problem -- you need
someone outside of your problem to help you solve it.
But if that person is outside of your problem, then
he can't truly know it, so he can't solve it, either.
What you need is a Rebbe -- someone who is infinitely
beyond your problem, yet knows that if you have the
problem, he has it too.
One more story, this one told of Rabbi DovBer's grandson
Rabbi Shmuel, the fourth Lubavitcher Rebbe:
Rabbi Shmuel was receiving people in yechidut. Scarcely
an hour had passed, and already the Rebbe was exhausted;
he called a break and asked for a fresh change of clothes.
The Rebbe's gabbai (secretary) emerged from the room
carrying the clothes which the Rebbe had removed. They
were drenched in sweat. "Master of the Universe!"
muttered the gabbai. "Why does he exert himself
so? Every hour he needs a new change of clothes. Why
does the Rebbe sweat so much?"
The Rebbe's door opened, and Rabbi Shmuel stood in the
doorway. "Go home," he said to his secretary.
"I will continue to pay your salary, but I no longer
desire your services. You have not the slightest understanding
of my work.
"Don't you understand? In the past hour twenty
people came to see me. To relate to each one's dilemma,
I must divest myself of my own personality and circumstances
and clothe myself in theirs. But since they came to
consult not with themselves but with me, I must re-clothe
my self in my own persona in order to advise them.
"Did you ever try changing your clothes forty times
an hour?" concluded the Rebbe. "If you did
that, you, too would be exhausted and bathed in sweat."
An Etrog from the Garden of
Eden
By Nissan Mindel
It was the first day of Sukkot, and all the congregants
in the shul(synagogue) of Rabbi Elimelech of Lizensk
were in a festive mood. One could feel the "Yom-Tov"
spirit in the atmosphere.
As Rabbi Elimelech stood at the lectern and began reciting
Hallel, all eyes turned upon him. There was something
unusual in his manner this Sukkot. Why did he stop so
suddenly in the middle of his swaying as he held the
etrog andlulav in his hands to sniff the air? And why
did he not go through the Service in his usual leisurely
manner? It was evident that something was on his mind,
something rather exciting by the look on his radiant
countenance.
The minute the davening (praying) was over, Rabbi Elimelech
hurried to where his brother Rabbi Zusha (who had come
to spend the festival with him) was standing, and said
to him eagerly: "Come and help me find the etrog
which is permeating the whole shul with the fragrance
of the Garden of Eden!"
And so together they went from person to person until
they reached the far corner of the shul where a quiet
looking individual was standing, obviously engrossed
in his own thoughts.
"This is the one," called out Rabbi Elimelech
delightedly. "Please, dear friend, tell me who
are you and where you obtained this wonderful etrog?"
The man, looking somewhat startled and bewildered at
this unexpected question, replied rather slowly, carefully
choosing his words:
"With all due respect to you, Rabbi, it is quite
a story. Do you wish to sit down and listen to it all?"
"Most certainly I do," answered Rabbi Elimelech
emphatically, "I am sure it will be a story worth
hearing!"
"My name," began the quiet-looking man, "is
Uri, and I come from Strelisk. I have always regarded
taking the "four kinds" on Sukkot as one of
my favoritemitzvot, and so, although I am a poor man
and could normally not afford to buy an etrog according
to my desire, my young wife, who agrees with me as to
its importance, helps me by hiring herself out as cook.
Thus she is independent of any financial help from me,
and I can use my own earnings for spiritual matters.
I am employed as melamed (teacher) in the village of
Yanev, which is not far from my native town. One half
of my earnings I use for our needs and with the other
half I buy an etrog in Lemberg. But in order not to
spend any money on the journey I usually go on foot.
"This year, during the Ten Days of Repentance,
I was making my way on foot as usual, with fifty gulden
in my purse with which to buy an etrog, when on the
road to Lemberg I passed through a forest and stopped
at a wayside inn to have a rest. It was time for 'minchah'
so I stood in a corner and davenedminchah.
"I was in the middle of my prayers when I heard
a terrible sound of moaning and groaning, as of one
in great anguish. I hurriedly finished my davening so
that I could find out what was the trouble, and if I
could help in any way.
"As I turned towards the man who was in obvious
distress, I beheld a most unusual and rough looking
person, dressed in peasant garb with a whip in his hands,
pouring out his troubles to the inn-keeper at the bar.
"From the somewhat confused story, between his
sobs, I managed to gather that the man with the whip
was a poor Jew who earned his living as a baal agallah
(owner of a horse and cart for carting purposes). He
had a wife and several children and he barely managed
to earn enough to make ends meet. And now, a terrible
calamity had be fallen him. His horse, without which
he could do nothing, had suddenly collapsed in the forest
not far from the inn, and just lay there unable to get
up.
"I could not bear to see the man's despair and
tried to encourage him, by telling him that he must
not forget that there is a G-d above us who could help
him in his trouble, however serious it seemed to him.
" 'I'll sell you another horse for fifty gulden,
although I assure you he is worth at least eighty, but
just to help you out in your difficulty!' " The
inn-keeper was saying to the wagon driver.
" 'I haven't even fifty cents, and he tells me
I can buy a horse for fifty gulden!' the man said bitterly.
"I felt I could not keep the money I had with me
for an etrog when here was a man in such desperate plight
that his very life and that of his family depended upon
his getting a horse. So I said to the inn-keeper:
"'Tell me what is the lowest price you would take
for your horse?'
"The inn-keeper turned to me in surprise. If you
pay me on the spot, I will take forty-five gulden, but
absolutely not a cent less. I am selling my horse at
a loss as it is!'
"I immediately took out my purse and banded him
forty-five gulden, the wagon driver looking on, his
eyes nearly bulging out of their sockets in astonishment.
He was just speechless with relief, and his joy was
absolutely indescribable.
"'Now you see that the Almighty can help you, even
when the situation appears to you to be entirely hopeless!'
I said to him as he hurried off with the innkeeper to
harness the newly-bought horse to his forsaken cart
tied to the stricken horse in the forest.
"As soon as they went off, I hurriedly got my few
things together and disappeared, as I did not want to
be embarrassed by the thanks of the grateful wagon driver.
"I eventually reached Lemberg with the remaining
five gulden in my pocket, and naturally had to content
myself with buying a very ordinary looking but kosheretrog.
Usually my etrog is the best in Yanev, and everyone
used to come and make a blessing over it , but this
year I was ashamed to return home with such a poor-looking
specimen, so my wife agreed that I could come here to
Lizensk, where nobody knew me."
"But my dear Rabbi Uri," cried out Rabbi Elimelech,
now that the former had finished his story, "Yours
is indeed an exceptional etrog. Now I realize why your
etrog has the fragrance of the Garden of Eden in its
perfume! Let me tell you the sequel to your story."
"When the wagon driver whom you saved thought about
his unexpected good fortune, he decided that you must
have been none other than the Prophet Elijahwhom the
Almighty had sent down to earth in the form of a man,
in order to help him in his desperation. Having come
to this conclusion the happy wagon driver looked for
a way of expressing his gratitude to the Almighty, but
the poor man knew not a Hebrew word, nor could he say
any prayers. He racked his simple brain for the best
way of thanksgiving.
"Suddenly his face lit up. He took his whip and
lashed it into the air with all his might, crying out
with all his being: 'Dear Father in Heaven, I love you
very much! What can I do to convince you of my love
for you? Let me crack my whip for you as a sign that
I love you!' Saying which, the wagon driver cracked
his whip into the air three times.
"On the eve of Yom Kippur, the Almighty up above
was seated on His 'Seat of judgment,' listening to the
first prayers of the Day of Atonement.
"Rabbi Levi Yitzchak of Berditchev, who was acting
as the Counsel for Defense on behalf of his fellow Jews,
was pushing a wagon full of Jewish mitzvot to the Gates
of Heaven, when Satan appeared and obstructed his path
with piles of Jewish sins, so that Rabbi Levi Yitzchak
just got stuck there. My brother Rabbi Zusha and I added
our strength to help him move his wagon forward, but
all in vain; even our combined efforts proved fruitless.
"Suddenly there came the sound of the cracking
of a whip which rent the air, causing a blinding ray
of light to appear, lighting up the whole universe,
right up to the very heavens! There we saw the angels
and all the righteous seated in a circle, singing G-d's
praise. On hearing the wagon driver's words as he cracked
his whip in ecstasy, they responded: 'Happy is the King
who is thus praised!'
"All at once, the Angel Michael appeared, leading
a horse, followed by the wagon driver with whip in hand.
"The Angel Michael harnessed this horse to the
wagon of mitzvot, and the wagon driver cracked his whip.
Suddenly the wagon gave a lurch forward, flattening
the piles of sins that had been obstructing the way,
and drove it smoothly and easily right up to the Throne
of Honor. There the King of Kings received it most graciously
and, rising from the Seat of judgment, went over and
seated Himself on the Seat of Mercy. A happy New Year
was assured."
"And now dear Rabbi Uri" concluded Rabbi Elimelech,
"you see that all this came about through your
noble action. Go home, and be a leader in Israel! For
you have proved your worthiness, and you shall carry
with you the approval of the Heavenly Court. But before
you go, permit me to hold this wonderful etrog of yours,
and praise G-d with it."
The Paper
Chicken
From the Chassidic Masters
Once, on the evening beforeYom Kippur, one of the chassidim
of Rabbi Elimelech of Lizensk asked his Rebbe to allow
him to see how he, Rabbi Elimelech, observes the custom
of kaparot.
"How I do kaparot?" repeated Rabbi Elimelech.
"How do youdo kaparot?"
"I am an ordinary Jew -- I do what everyone else
does. I hold the rooster in one hand, the prayer book
in the other, and recite the text, 'This is my exchange,
this is in my stead, this is my atonement...'"
"That's exactly what I do," said Rabbi Elimelech.
"I take the rooster in one hand, the prayer book
in the other, and recite the text. Actually, there might
be a certain difference between your kaparot and mine:
you probably make sure to use a white rooster, while
to me it makes no difference: white, black, brown --
a rooster's a rooster..."
But the chassid persisted that his Rebbe's kaparot was
certainly no ordinary event. He had been coming to Lizhensk
to pray with the Rebbe every Yom Kippur for more than
twenty years now, and had always wanted to observe his
Rebbe at this most solemn moment.
"You want to see an extraordinary kaparot?"
said Rabbi Elimelech. "Go observe how Moshe the
tavern-keeper does kaparot. Now, there you'll see something
far more inspiring than my own, ordinary kaparot."
The chassid located Moshe's tavern at a crossroads several
miles outside of Lizhensk and asked to stay the night.
"I'm sorry," said the tavern-keeper. "As
you see, this is a small establishment, and we don't
have any rooms to let. There's an inn a small distance
further down the road."
"Please," begged the chassid, "I've been
traveling all day, and I want to rest awhile. I don't
need a room -- I'll just curl up in a corner for a few
hours and be on my way."
"O.K.," said Moshe. "We'll be closing
up shortly, and then you can get some sleep."
After much shouting, cajoling and threatening, Moshe
succeeded in herding his clientele of drunken peasants
out the door. The chairs and tables were stacked in
a corner, and the room, which also served as the tavern-keeper's
living quarters, readied for the night. Midnight had
long passed, and the hour of kaparot was approaching.
The chassid, wrapped in his blanket under a table, feigned
sleep, but kept watch in the darkened room, determined
not to miss anything.
Before dawn, Moshe rose from his bed, washed his hands
and recited the morning blessings. "Time for kaparot!"
he called quietly to his wife, taking care not to wake
his guest. "Yentel, please bring me the notebook
-- it's on the shelf above the cupboard."
Moshe sat himself on a small stool, lit a candle, and
began reading from the notebook, unaware that his "sleeping"
guest was wide awake and straining to hear every word.
The notebook was a diary of all the misdeeds and transgressions
the tavern-keeper had committed in the course of the
year, the date, time and circumstance of each scrupulously
noted. His "sins" were quite benign -- a word
of gossip one day, oversleeping the time for prayer
on another, neglecting to give his daily coin to charity
on a third -- but by the time Moshe had read through
the first few pages, his face was bathed in tears. For
more than an hour Moshe read and wept, until the last
page had been turned.
"Yentel," he now called to his wife, "bring
me the second notebook."
This, too, was a diary -- of all the troubles and misfortunes
that had befallen him in the course of the year. On
this day Moshe was beaten by a gang of peasants, on
that day his child fell ill; once, in the dead of winter,
the family had frozen for several nights for lack of
firewood; another time their cow had died, and there
was no milk until enough rubles had been saved to buy
another.
When he had finished reading the second notebook, the
tavern-keeper lifted his eyes heavenward and said: "So
you see, dear Father in Heaven, I have sinned against
You. Last year I repented and promised to fulfill Your
commandments, but I repeatedly succumbed to my evil
inclination. But last year I also prayed and begged
You for a year of health and prosperity, and I trusted
in You that it would indeed be this way.
"Dear Father, today is the eve of Yom Kippur, when
everyone forgives and is forgiven. Let us put the past
behind us. I'll accept my troubles as atonement for
my sins, and You, in Your great mercy, shall do the
same."
Moshe took the two notebooks in his hands, raised them
aloft, circled them three times above his head, and
said: "This is my exchange, this is in my stead,
this is my atonement." He then threw them into
the fireplace, where the smoldering coals soon turned
the tear-stained pages to ashes. |